You can never fully escape the darkness in your mind

 
I remember a time, it was a dark time. I thought light no longer existed, at least I would never find it again. I Felt so much pain, sadness, fear, and doubt. I tried not to listen to the awful thoughts running through my head. I wanted to give up, not only on searching for acceptance, but to give up on life. I wished god would just bring me home. I rember watching the blood run down the drain. I rember the empty bottle laying on the floor. I remember closing my eyes, as images of my life past through my mind. I felt my life pass me by.
I had hope to wake up some where else. Some where with angels, clouds and peace. I didn’t. Everyday I woke up to the same mentally draining pain. It felt like it was getting harder and harder to continue on, to fight this darkness.
  But one day out of the blue I discovered feelings I never knew. This handsome man came into my life, and lite the flame on the candle I thought had completely melted away long ago.
       Though that flame was lit the darkness still remains.  I can feel the negativity lingering around me like cobwebs in my brain. The voices whisper in my ear, continuously. The words they say Are like fists banging on a door, desperate to break me down.