My Imperfections

 
Sometimes I feel like i'm drowning in my own tears
 just those hurtful things you say and it hurts me.
I love you! I know we are having hard times right now
things will get better just wait and see…
I wish i could make things better but
I don't know what to do or say to make it better
When we get frustrated at each other and you make threats to leave it makes me sad because i know how hard things are right now

Im sorry if i did something to make you more irritated at me
When we get into our loud talks it scares me  because
 i remember all the times you said you'd never leave
Was that just a lie or do you actually mean it
And i cry because i think that i'm imperfect for you and
You could do so much better
I don't know what i would do if you actually left
I would be so heartbroken i would not be able to breathe
Sometimes i think that at any moment
you could throw up your hands and
 say im done as u walk out of that door taking my heart with you
Leaving me with a hole in my heart that i will never be able to fix

Sometimes I feel like you love your tobacco more than you love me and you have to have it to deal with all my imperfections every day.
When all i ever do is love you and try to do the everything

Sometimes i feel like doing my best is not good enough or
I'll never be as smart as you.
I say i don't know most of the time because
if i tell u what i think or feel i think you'll pack your bags and leave
I would cry like I just lost my best friend,my soulmate,
My  reasons to smile,my laughter,and everything i love.
My life would never ever be the same.
My eyes would be like the clouds that gives us rain.
If you left it would rain and never stop.
I Would be lost and everything would be meaningless.
I would wander from everything that use to be my sunshine and
 my happiness and wander into the darkness and want to say there forever because  i wouldn't have you and
why search for something to bring happiness into my life
When i had something real and brought me happiness
when i had happiness with you.

I love you. My worst fear is waking up and you'll be gone forever.
You are everything i think about….everything I need….
…...everything that want…. I need you in my life forever
I don't want to lose you ever! Your the one that brought the happy feeling inside of  me again and you brought me  out of the darkness when no-one else ever could.

I don't wanna lose you ever

because then i'd have to write poems
About you leaving and it broke my  heart.
Then we would be strangers again and
I wouldn't be able to stand it and it would tear me apart
Not knowing or having you in my life.
We have been through so much and we have beautiful memories.
So please don't ever leave
My life has been better since i have you.