One More Try

I look into the mirror
And I hate what i see
I’d smash it to a million pieces
But then there’d be a million me’s
 
I hate my ugly mouth
With my stupid little grin
Spitting all my big shot lies
To strangers who aren’t my  friends
 
I hate the weight of cold
That pins me in my bed
Numbing all my thoughts
Bringing winter to my head
 
I hate when you comfort me
And caress away all my pain
Stop bringing pieces of peace to me
Shooting antitoxins inside my veins  
 
 
Hating myself I’m good at
Don’t take that away from me
What it would take to change it
Would be another me
 
Maybe I’ll meet my better self
Even like the way he grins
Share a story that makes us laugh
Enjoy a breeze that’s blowing in
 
There is no need to worry
This dark rodeo will pass on by
And I hate myself for saying this
But I will give me one more try