"Real"

Do you not see how stupid you look?
You're so fucking dumb in my book.
Always talking about how very "real" you are.
Always screaming about how "loyal" you are.

You wouldn't know real and loyal if it smacked you in the face.
If there was a contest you would be the one to take last place.
I seriously don't know why I felt anything for you.
Can you tell me what I am supposed to fucking do?

How do I rewind time and go back to hating you?
Can I get these feelings for you to maybe undo?
Why do I feel so strongly for someone I can't stand?
What even happened to us just being fucking friends?

What happened to us being enemies?
I used to not even want you to talk to me.
I want to go back to having no communication.
I am so fucking drained by all of this confusion.