Poison

I dont wanna die  
I dont wanna live  
I wanna touch the sky  
but im stuck in hell  
waiting for the bell  
I need to believe  
it's hard to breathe
Pressure is way too much  
I'm out of touch  
hard not to stay beneath  
it's like I dont exist  
inside my head there is this beast  
telling me to go away  
not to trust, not to feel, I'm the prey  
It's hard to see rainbows these days,  
shit like that stays  
can I have back my life  
and enjoy it with my wife?