Love me, Crush me

I cant believe I fell for it  
I fell for you again    
I hate the way you make me weak    
The way you make me sin    
    
You draw me in with wisps of love    
You wrap me in your warmth    
And when you feel the love returned    
You mock me into scorn    
     
You sold the lie you always sell    
I bought it without  thought    
Off guard you caught my heart again    
 And crushed me on the spot    
     
"What a fool, I am to think    
Your love was ever real    
You'd never love someone like me    
Cause love is not ideal"    
     
I get it, I'm your favorite game    
You like to watch me wither    
Always pretend you feel the same    
Then drop me for another      
     
I must admit I always know    
I'm walking in a trap    
But for you I'd die anew    
For you I'd cross all maps    
     
I understand you can not stay    
You can not bare the weight      
The hurt I always let you see    
Is hurt you can't escape      
     
Addictied to the pain I think    
It's what it has to be    
I like the pain you make me drink    
And you like hurting me