methadone

i fell in love with methadone
the big orange wafers
made me feel at home

i would rush to the doctor
and a seat i would take
never knowing
how long i would wait

the pharmacist would say
here you are
i would twist the bottle open
right in my car

i would swallow some pills
and feel it go down my throat
hoping that i would not choke

30 minutes later i would feel it all
not much longer
my head would fall