Trash Can Memories

Presented with a choice
I could sit and revisit trashcan  
memories,  the ones that suspend  
me at the waters edge,  where  
trees grow apples that are rotten
to the core
A place where cracked mason
 jars filled with dead Lilly's
 are the prettiest things to
look at  
 
I could sit and watch my battered
 heart hang by a noose wrapped
with parasitic growth amongst
 twisted limbs that lie naked and starving waiting for your return
 
I could dwell on the vision of  
your mouths open to fornication unable to stave your desire  
While your flaccid bone begs
for me calling my name
 
I could but I will not  
I have chosen to forgive  
Forgiveness holds no place for  
anger or wrath  
I believe I am an overcomer  
 
What I believe to be truth  
is truth  
My mind brings forth thoughts
that develops emotion  
Love or fear nothing else  
 
I choose love  
My feelings determine my  
belief I believe in myself and  
I believe in love  
I desire the calm  
that I require  
therefore it is mine  
 
With love and understanding  
I will overcome pain
Sorrow and heartache  
To dwell on infidelity will  
destroy me  
Simply put I will not allow you
 to  destroy me  
 
I am worth more than that