If I seem distant or preoccupied

To him I say I love yoi
To me he replies you know me not enough to love me
I know your heart you could not create such thoughts
Without the ability to have known these words from me would certainly come
With your mind wrapped around mine,
I find joy in monotony,light in the darkness,
Your thoughtful remarks,your amazing intuition when you text how are you, you ok ,occasionally to my dismay
Tears come in a public display
I know that I may seem preoccupied,
But ive come to realization that im too old to wait
If something feels so right, then why deny myself the
Oppurtunity to act on these feelings
Too quick planning and playing it safe is what ive done my whole life
And because of that the only regrets I claim are the things I never did
Maybe you do not feel this infatuated
Maybe the mere thought of me doesnt give you butterflies
Or perhaps you enjoy misery
Maybe you just dont know im sick of denying myself happiness
I think of you first thing wen I wake and last thing in my mind when end the dayso incase you dont know wrte grown and you dont have  to be miserable
To be a grown up or to be a dad
Trust me  when I say someone that loves you wants your happiness above thier own even if that happiness occurs without them
If I said im waiting for you,would you leave me here to never know
If my happiness and yours could never be realized
That my heart is full of love for a man married to someone else
That has no real intent in moveing on except in writing
So my heart lies in wait,for this man I believe was brought to me by faite
I miss him like hes already been mine,he either lives and works for a homelife thay exsists out of convenience, but at the cost of an amazing what shoulldve been,what he doesnt know is any of this because like him im logical I too play it safe I tjink it through,i yry to foresee my future,and for the first time im willing to take a leap of faith,to close my eyes and step off that cliff into the unknown
To either fall flat on my face,or you catch me in your arms and I sware if you do ill make you happier than any other woman could,and so if I seem distant its cause I am so dont wait, until were too old to enjoy one.another
But if ive felt for you in a way you never intended for me to
Please tell me plainly cause I also see a great freindship in you and so my love
If youd like me to just let you know what im going through
Or whats on my mind lately,do I seem out my head to you just let me knowvwhat to do because with your words comeing from your hearts song
Your heart sang to me and the tune was contagious
Youve infected my mind with romantasized daydreams of you and me
So whenever your ready for being loved just for who you are
Just take my hand and well leap into vallhallah together
I believe im made for you and you for me so come take chance cause if you dont we may nevet see