December, 2011

Destruction.. That's all i see.
Ever since you left, everything is crashing down me.
People who i considered friends.. turning their backs.
I think it might all actually be my fault.
I can't help it, I go days not wanting to talk to anyone.
Walking around school, trying to laugh..
But every place i look, i see memories.
I completely forget my phone. Texts and calls, i don't get.
Sorry to all those i've ignored..
Sitting outside, in the place where we sat and talked.
Listening to some of our favorite bands. Over and over..
Trying to forget the world.
Hollow blue eyes,empty and blank, just watching life pass by.
Like a bird, free.
Whenever i feel like it all is getting better, something else comes around.
Reality comes and knocks me back down.
So many years of you having my back, seeing you everyday.
Hanging out all the time. I miss all of it.
Everything happens for a reason though, right?
I keep telling myself that.
Maybe, just maybe... One day i'll realize it all.
Maybe it'll all make sense.