Love's Ghost

It seemed fate had brought us together
A passionate attraction captured my soul  
When she left, I realized always and forever  
had just become my eternal black hole  
  
Everyday, since she has left her image has clouded my mind  
Everything reminds me of something about her  
    The conflict of everything she is to me  
     and knowing that she's nowhere near  
tears my heart and soul to pieces over and over  
   
Any moment, second, a thought will obsess me  
and something we shared will play in my mind  
I wonder, without me, is she truly happy,  
and even more afraid of the truth I might find.    
   
Unable to get past it Not sure I really want to  
I'd rather live with her ghost than forget her  
       Fantasies of a time machine  
       unquenched in the reality  
that I deserve to live in this pain forever  
   
Sometimes I dream that there could be a chance  
she is hoping I find her and win her back  
Then I remember she found another to dance  
and the dream crumbles in the hope I lack  
   
I am growing older, weaker, decrepit, and losing breath  
as if love has become a poison slowly killing me  
       Unable or unwilling to move on  
       except for the apparition of possibility  
appearing in images of what my life could be