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this is so deep with inner passion yet sad but speaks volumes of truth with the struggles that comes with having the blues of depression with the anxiety for sometimes we have to just go back to bed and try again until we wake up...nicely composed

Thank you,  Stoney. I have a feeling that you've been there a time or twenty just to get the strength you carry today. Your understand & appreciation of everything, not just this, is most sincerely appreciated! ♡

yes i have been there more times than i care to remember i have PDTS from the military sometimes i dont even know if i am coming or going for sometimes these mood swings are dangerous, for everyday is a struggle just to stay above the tides of the world with the drama and stress of life in itself, for i have known depression with the blues of darkness all to well but with strength and courage, i am still here fighting a daily battle they say what doesnt kill you only makes you that much stronger, to continue on fighting the battle i guess that is what being a warrior is truly all about dealing with lifes twists turns and curves...respect

Thank you for your service then. I value & honor all veterans dearly...❤💙  
I'm probably outta this place for awhile, it's not serving me any purpose now. Hopefully it passes soon, but I'm doubtful of it. Huge hugs!

YOUR VERY WELCOME FROM SP/4 SCOTT I CAN UNDERSTAND THAT SOMETIMES ITS GOOD TO STEP BACK AND JUST BREATH FOR LIKE ALL THINGS THEY WILL PASS WITH TIME, BUT THE TRICK IS NOT TO DWELL UPON THOSE THINGS THAT CAPTURE YOUR SOUL TAKING YOU TO A PLACE OF NO PEACE ONLY THE DARKNESS THAT AWAITS, SO IN OTHER WORDS STAY OUT OF THE PRISON OF YOUR MIND CELL FOR I PRAY FOR A SAFE AND HOPEFULLY  A LOVELY RETURN TO DOING WHAT YOU ENJOY DOING CONNECTING TO DEEP MINDED SPIRITUAL SOULS...ONE LOVE WITH RESPECT

I went through a harrowing and deep depression in my early thirties. This piece leaves me with a tinge of a melancholic reminder.

It's a part of me that has came & gone since childhood; minus the xanax.. Lol.. This past week, it's hit harder than ever... just too much bullshit on my shoulders. *deep sigh*

Thank you ever kindly for the feels on my spill & finding something within it to provoke some appreciation!

Thank you for your concern, it's most appreciated. I hid it in my author's note that this isn't me all of the time, it's been with me since my younger years when I had no idea why I was that way. It's just a part that has resurfaced in the past week or so and I felt like expressing it, given my newfound writing freedom.;)
 
On a side note; im not sure if this is a family though, or some fake fuckery bullshit.. many things make me ponder & reflect. Maybe it's my mood or shedding of the rose colored glasses ¿

Ah ... lovely purge then and purges always needed ... Bless and love ... .

It does feel a little better to purge, indeed. A bit terrifying & lonesome when many simply overlooked the message. That's life though...

better out than in and festering and poisoning ... pretty much anything important is terrifying to think about ... Bless and love ... .

beautiful Pandora so painful a write
embracing what is and letting go of what didn't happen
is the hardest lesson we are to learn...

I myself am dealing with this
it hurts so very badly...

beautifully painful write...

love Brenda ❤

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I must say your.poetry takes me to where Dante’s Divine trilogy did. And to bring me on that esteemed writer’s journey earns my highest applause. Your virtuosity in lyricism with its emotional dynamics and epic story-telling is an achievement which not all writers can make. Like Dante you are on a heroinic journey from darkness to light. Your verse is versitle to the point of cosmic. You make sorrow magnificent with a flick of your pen. Bravissimo my darling. XoXoXo John

Thank you so very much for the encouraging words, John. You know they're always greatly appreciated, or should know! All smiles that I can make oblique look pretty since I'm most definitely not looking to be a Debbie downer or beg for pity. Just trying out writing some repressed feelings!  
 
Forgive me for not getting to this sooner or to your page, you may have noticed I left momentarily. I was a bit depressed about not being able to write while feeling terrible ( sick wise) & had a fuck it moment. Fingers crossed, the muse returns, I'm lost in a sea of blanks...
I'll make my rounds later today, can't wait to see what you've written...All promises with extra Pandy hugs for you!!  
 
With Dante’s Divine trilogy, are you referring to Dante's Inferno? I've yet to read it & feel stupid for asking, given it's such a popular read. * facepalm *

Honey, your muse is amazing even when writing melancholy poetry. But if your muse is quiet she will wake up again. Often I feel I'm not in a writing mood. ThenI set to putting together words and things come together. This poem of yours is fabulous. You write like a dream in whatever mood. Dante's inferno was the first book in a trilogy. The first book is the inferno, then purgatory, and finally paradise or heaven. Your poetry takes me on such an epic journey. And I must say you do it superbly. I was overjoyed to see you back here because I thought I'd lost you forever. You are always my darling  Pandy whose poetry makes me rejoice in whatever mood it is written in. ;-)

XoXoXo
John

Oh bless you, John, for such lovely sentiments; you thinking you'd forever lost me. I'm touched you noticed & I'd be missed.. <3

Since the muse is out of commission, I may just sit back with Dante's inferno & recharge. I've been telling myself I need to read it anyhow.

What did you mean by Chimera, Pandora? Obviously, I have Googled it but it gave me 2 possibilities, so over to you.
We will inevitably wallow in what we once were years ago. But were we really any happier then, than we are now?
I mean, we had struggles then, right!  It is often the reflecting that causes the sorrow I think. ;-)

I used it by this definition of the word:
*a thing that is hoped or wished for but in fact is illusory or impossible to achieve*

I meant it as in hope, hopeful that I could. Billy, yes things were different & better; irreplaceable, plus unachievable. It's not the reflection that distorts my vision or creates an obstacle. I have an injury that stole every damn dream since childhood. Those dreams defined me; without saving animals, I'm next to nothing. Some days, the disability, the losses of career & hobbies plus other health issues, hit extra hard!

Thank you, didi. I apologize for just now seeing this. Thank you for the uplifting words and reminder to be proud. These feelings aren't current but can always jump out against my willingness. Hugs back, sweet man.💝

Wishing you only better tomorrow's.

Happy New Year boo.

Losty.

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Omg, my Losty! Where have you been?! We need you here,  your presence is missed by me and I know others too. I'm sorry for just now seeing this. Love and light beautiful one.♥️

Tranquilized written, loved it.
Beautiful flow and leaves an image in your head.

Thank you. I'll be making it to see if you have posted any of your work soon. Again, welcome!