Strange faces

  The loneliness upon my soul,  oh so broken.
Oh just one more drop, of that smooth rum.  Just  one more snort of that wonderful cocaine.

  I've started once more now I can't stop. My brain is ready to pop.  Sobbing in pain.  It helps me escape, yet nothing to gain.

    I don't what I've become.
I'm coming undone.
Praying for an overdose.

  Waking up in unknown places.  Seeing strangers faces.  Lying naked next to someone unknown.  Just a one night stand, to feed my addiction.
 
 I'm so close.
Lying naked on the floor, in a rat infested shit hole.  Where the hell am I?
Who are all these people laying with me?

  So many faces I do not know.
Male, female, transgender it doesn't matter.  I sexually pleasure them, as long as I get my drug.

  I've lost those dear to me.
The drugs seemed more important.
Yet those dear, are what brought me down.

  My smile is just a frown.
Now I just write of pain and sorrows.
I write my should have, could have, would have.