Human experience pt2

sometimes I feel like
Im not cut out for
 this human experience.
maybe it was a mistake,
I shoulda been placed in
 a different dimension,
some secret space
unoccupied and unknown
just drifting alone..
ultimately Ive always felt like
"what the hell am I doing here,
I don't belong here."
I've let the fear
fill and overflow,
it's furious grip
never to let me go
and so I sense my soul slip
slowly but surely
further and further away
day after day
degrading and evading each emotion
drowning in an ocean of obscurity,
overwhelming obstacles
 and insecurities
I let bring me down..

still I know
this shall pass
as all things will,
these feelings
these thoughts
this life
these dealings with
inner dilemmas,
my demons driving me insane
dwelling always in my brain
I don't want to continue to
 complain or carry on feeling
so drained and empty
yet it's entirely up to me,
I know this in my head and heart
but I dread not being able to
follow through with
everything that's been said,
before I'm dead
I better start
practicing what I preach
and reach for a reality I've long since fantasized/remembered.