From the Depths of Hell

Wow Its been a while
 
You're the last person I thought Id see
But then, you never admitted what you are
A punk ass coward scum mother fucker, right?  
Maybe my demons will win tonight...
 
How I loved you, oh my Lord
you tossed it all back at me
Literally and hard too  
whats a fool in love to do?
 
Took some non gut sutures for a while
an I.V. as well that held poison
lots of pain meds, oh the pain
they all warned me you were insane
 
You have no fucking clue what you've done to me
even the nurses shook their heads, judging
I still bare those ridiculously hideous scars
I cared for you, held you up to the stars
 
I was so young and stupid,meek and small
Im not a big woman, not large on any scale
you gave me my weak ass nickname  
When I hear it now I cringe in shame
 
You are an enormous beast
but not close to a real man
what are you,  6'6" on a good day
yet you still had to kick my ass that way?  
 
Ill never forget in a million years  
your hands around my throat
PTSD does that to lady that's been beat down
Triggered some shit when I saw in my town
 
I was frozen, stuck, motionless
Fight or flight was my only thought
The grocery lady asked if I was ok
I couldn't speak, I couldn't run away
 
You're stalking me again, aren't you?
For years I thought I was free  
never thought Id see you again
don't you dare think we can be friends
 
What you did to me was distasteful
I'm a prisoner, shackled to your violence
what you did to me will never fully heal
all my emotions and addictions are still very real
 
Why is your sorry ass around here?
there's nothing here for you  
Game on mother fucker, you will not win
this time I shall prevail, even if I have to commit a sin
 
Bring it, asshole  
Ill try to defend myself this time
I have learned a thing or 2  
I fucking triple dog dare you...