pretty flowers kill

toxic by nature
shredded like paper
hear the darkness escape with her
why am i filled with anger

the doubt in her voice
your eyes filled with tears
why am i here?
i think about bleeding and count to 10
why is my mind so broken
i really am corrupted

can't be fixed within
so i try escaping
"how are you?"
i lie and say im great
we are breaking
good thing im good at faking
you can't tell im pretending

i love so much
but people just use me up
i often think about giving up
walk over my corpse
will i ever be enough?
if she leaves or gives up
i promise i'll let the demons get the gun

"POW" like fourth of July
she's in charge of my life
fuck a goodbye

i want the depression to end
when she gets here i will be happy
that feeling is so foreign to me
does she really think im happy?
got happy about money then it was taken from me

joy or insanity
i don't know which truly belongs to me
bipolar disorder
anxiety
depression all control me

i want love so desperately
something like that feels so foreign to me
that level of intimacy never belongs to me
"please" i beg when she can't hear
 promise to love me, don't leave me, be here for me

all the things you are i wish i could be
what if she doesn't like me
i'm so different than what she wants me to be
the way i dress
the way i talk
the i act
is nothing like her
from the outside looking in we don't match
but in this world in my heart, she loves me
and i love her
i hope that's enough to kill everyone around us

sick and cold to the touch
two corrupted souls
made to love
we aren't toxic
we just love different from you
you haven't seen all we've been through
our love speaks volumes

i hope she truly knows how stuck my heart is
i pray to god she doesn't break it
i don't think i'll be able to take it