Delusional

Hand in hand
we walked the beach
staring out into the open sea
I fell in love, you fell in lust
it’s the only thing
I’ve ever known

When the night is somber,
a lonely ghost in the ugly dark
I become a begging daughter-
childless mother, clingy lover
clinging to the memory
of the dreams I’ve lost

And I pretend I’m things
I’ll never be
hoping maybe
they’ll grow on me..

I pretend I’m loved
pretend I’m wanted
pretend I’m the princess
who will one day be
someone’s beauty queen

My delusions are kinder
and sweeter to me..

Maybe
my delusions
are the only thing
I’ll ever truly..
be