a love letter

 
in my gentle time, you look away
you couldn't see me cry
it would break you to witness my frailty
when I was little you would get angry when I was sick
it hurt too much to see your child in pain

I'd been wondering where you've been...dad
today you've entered from within a poem
I wonder what you want to say
I've missed you...

it's all you can take not to intervene daily on my behalf
I'm sorry dad...I remain a little girl lost
when you did everything in your power to save me

I'm afraid dad...what will I do without him?
my husband and guard
you know I need a guardian
I've beseeched the heavens to make me whole
it hasn't happened for me

you knew I was different from childhood
you worried when you had no choice but to let go
I wanted to be a part of the world
you could shelter me no more

you wonder do I forgive you
for not being there when I needed you
you're here now dad
I feel your presence strongly

I believe you have insight you didn't have before
be at peace in the universe
I know I am not alone