Pitfall

Why am I this way
Cant take the agony
Is anyone hearing me
Have you ever had the feeling
Mere existence is overwhelming
Your caught in a dark place
In a darker race
Headed towards your demise
With fear consumes my eyes
Future is gone
Save me? no one
How could this happen again
Why do I even try to live
Isolation is the only truth
Nothing can get to you
Myself is all i need
Put everyone in your past
Leave them behind
Only way to survive
Tears fill theses pupils
Something im use to
Disappointment abounds
Depression goes round n round
Depths of my soul hurt
For what its worth
I cant recall when it shifted
Must have missed it
My aura turned sour
Demons scream louder
The winning side has yet
to bring peace
All this grief
Its best to give in
Live with misery
Take the penalty
and plead guilty.