where i stand

standing here for what feels like an eternity
too afraid to contemplate my own fate  
for so long you played me like a plague  
like acid rain washed your face away  
once ingrained in my brain  
your memory is a haze  
that i can’t completely erase  
today finally came the day  
that i no longer throw my heart away  
broke free from the chains  
you forcefully tied to me  
no longer restrained  
 with this strain of decay  
even if my bones may break  
cast your shadow of doubt  
instead of wasting away  
i’ll find my way out  
i let your palace of malice  
parading around as true romance  
burn at my own expense  
flames in the moonlight remind me  
of aurora borealis midnight dance  
you took everything from me  
stole all my dignity  
i find beauty in the cruelty & pain  
left me hollow, numb, & cold  
either i erode & implode or let go  
i don’t fear what i’ve done  
i don’t care enough to run  
i don’t know where i’m going  
all i know is where i’ve been  
where i stood i’ll never stand again