The Beautiful Pharmaceutical (Parts 1&2)

The Beautiful Pharmaceutical Part 1 (2008)

You chill me out and help me sleep when I've been up all weekend and had nothing to eat
 
It's my love of amphetamines that has caused all the problems
 
You're the perfect antidote to that horrible poison
 
I must obtain you illegally without a prescription
 
I suppose you too have become an addiction
 
But you're so cute
Little, round and blue
 
My girlfriend would be jealous if she knew my true feelings for you
 
You lift me up and turn my emotions around when the working week has got me down
 
You are in so many ways so special to me
 
You are like sweet nectar to a honey bee
 
If people knew they'd say you'd become an obsession
 
But what do they know?
You slow things down, give me clarity and direction
 
Somehow you have the power to change what's inside of me
 
It must be your added helpings of anti anxiety
 
Over these past few months you've helped me in so many ways
 
Like when I was in Amsterdam...
Those were the days...
 
Coming down off the acid
 
Remembering who I am
I owe it all to you
 
My beloved valium
 
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The Beautiful Pharmaceutical Part 2 (2017)

Beautiful pharmaceutical
How I miss
 
The calming effect
Of your soothing kiss
 
You were predictable like sunrise
Every time you'd deliver
 
My head was stuck in the sand
With regards to my liver
 
It's only been two months now
But how I miss...
 
The warmth of your glow
Your reassuring bliss
 
The occasional memory lapses
Were a small price to pay
 
For quick firing synapses
That I relied on everyday
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I could see in the shadows
Hear over the din
 
​​​​​​But soon after you left.......
 
That's when the fog rolled in
 
What I would now give to hear
The sweet pop of your blister pack
 
You were the chiropractors touch
To an aching back
 
You combined like an enzyme
With the chemicals in my brain
 
Insecurities and insomnia
Were the beasts to be slain
 
Now self doubt builds
Until the point where I can't stand it
 
I feel naked and afraid
Without your pale blue comfort blanket
 
You kept me well balanced
My negative emotions under control
 
Without you I am incomplete
An arse with no hole
 
Out of place and ridiculous
Like a cow with no udders
 
Changing my skin like a Chameleon
So as not to offend others
 
So I secretly yearn for your safe return.... ​​​​​
 
If you were to return now
I'd have everything to gain.....
 
And everything to lose
 
Someday we'll meet again
My best friend
My muse