Whenever, Whatever, bullshit!

Opportunity came knocking.... It's love
I can't wait
If I don't hop on this train I may not catch another one for a minute
 
your advertisment
Nice catch
I think I missed some parts within the fine print
I don't recall in there where I'd spend nights alone
The part where your drinks would be in your hands more than my hands cuffed into yours
I don't think I seen that part that says your sisters and brothers would be first and I'm last
Or the part that says I'm only gonna be available on nights when I'm in the mood
Cause if I did I would have skipped past your ass at that Walmart entrance
And gave a chance of love to a man worth my time  
You begged for an opportunity and I latched on like a fish looking for it's next meal.  
What can I say it had been three years since I'd had something serious.  
 
I thought you'd swoop down with the cape on. Turn all my thoughts of men into positive.
But I see now your version of care and love makes me want to regurgitate
Makes me want to take back every I LOVE YOU
makes me want to go see a therapist just to make sure I'm sane
Asking family and friends about scenarios , have me feeling ashamed
I want to chop my fucking heart out  
Set it on fire and send it down a river
Better to have no heart than have one
 
I cemented my heart on reserve for you
Do you know how many guys I turned away
How many times I've moved around appointments just to be by your side
Nights I've soaked my pillow from the lost time
I just don't understand how you will travel almost thirty miles to drink with family  
But pass me up when I'm only 14 miles away if you claim you love everything about me
And the kids once adored you
But even now they speak from a distasteful space
And don't cry to me or them about your attempts to be a part of their lives.  
They know a liar when they see one
 
Red flags why do we ignore them
Trust our guts more  
Stop letting our imaginations fill our hearts with hallucinations
Almost two years of your excuses  
I just sit and listen , maybe one day soon I'll be less interested in the next episode of your bullshit
Maybe another consumer will come and buy me out of this contract
 
Whenever you decide to step  up let know
Be a real Man and not a prisoner of your past, trying to relive your grand  theft auto lifestyle from over 20 years ago
Whenever you decide you want me as a wife and not just a freak hoe to fuck in your spare time let me know
I know it starts with me so let me set the tone...
With some Rose Royce ,"love don't live here anymore" as you place the key to my house back in the palm of my hand  
Time I give my love and make my life with a real one
Not imitations.