Pieces to that come with me

I hate myself
All the pieces that come with me
Why haven't I vanished
Did I not live my life right
We all have our problems right
When it all hits me I can't run
I tried to tuck them all under my pillow
Found it uncomfortable to sleep at night

Tears dried
From all the times I cried and it didn't help a thing

I am sick of being the star that made an exit from the sky
Stones in my pockets float me gently down the river
Maybe rest my head in this gas contraption
I'm not famous but I feel like I'm the hot topic when it comes disappointing stories
Skate and fall why stand when falling seems to be the norm
No one holding my hand
No one to hold period.

Everyone says you put on the big girl drawers
No sobbing time to get knocked in the face to stand again
No bawling

You know what I say
Get the fuck outta my face
With that tired ass speech on doing what you have you have to do
The bullshit on your so strong
The hype about your such a good mom when you clearly hear the crack in the back of my voice

Miss me with the I wish I could helps
And things will get betters
And the I'm sorries

You have to change that mind set or things won't get better
Oddly they haven't and I changed my attitude for over a week's time
In fact feels like life is feeding me chaos
And my attitude is shit smashed under a shoe

I don't want to be me anymore
Not even you
Just rather be ashes
Cease to exist
I hate myself
Pieces that come with me