Forlorn & Every other Moon

I truly felt the essence of this, Tallen. Here is believing better days are ahead for you, my friend.  
Good to see you posting again.

I love solitude but need some human companionship
and it's difficult here when i am the youngster at age 62

My thoughts and Feel gravitate to ink like this when i am feeling alone

appreciate You sharing Your thoughts
thank You

Are you in a retirement community?

Yes.  

I mean, my neighbors are nice but don't want to hangout.  Most of them are in their 70's & 80's

The complex i live in i haven't seen (or met) anyone
even close to my peer group (plus or minus 5 yrs to my age)

Wow. I guess it's a good thing that longevity is present there.  I have never considered a retirement community, although I hear they're very well-maintained and close-knit.  I still have a few years left before thinking about that.  But if I had a choice, the southwest is definitely where I would head vs Florida.  I used to live in New Mexico and absolutely loved it. Something magical about the desert you can't find anywhere else in the world.

O i love the Desert (even though my physical self struggles with Heat) and it's Monsoon season now and all the Cacti bloom after a drenching and the landscape is Gorgeous.

Green Valley, AZ is a part of the Tuscon metro area and predominantly a retired section of AZ, though there are cities now with schools and families and kids (cities like Vail & Sahuarita).

I moved here to help my Sister (and her husband) out with the care of our Mom.  Now they can take trips knowing i can stay at their home and our Mom won't be alone.

If not for the internet
(Chess and Poetry and social medias)
i would be really up a creek with no paddles.

Just every now and then i am lonely but it passes -- usually with a Hallucination or 2 and then i am back to my normal weird self.

I remember the desert in bloom. We used to ride out to it after the rains.  And those rains were always so magical, like snow on Christmas. We used to play in it and get drenched. Better than any pool. More fun too.  

As long as you get back to yourself, I guess it doesn't matter how, does it?! LOL!  

You're lucky you still have your mother.  Enjoy her while you can.

I already look younger than 62!!  
(mostly because i am 50% Okinawan and because i don't like being in the sun and have tried to stay out of it as much as possible)

Nearly all my life i've hung out with people 10 to 20 years younger and no one treated me like i was older
not until my hair started getting white and gray -- LOL

Yesterday, i spoke aloud about 6 spills in a row while i was trying to wake and get outta bed
but by the time i got to my journal i only had 6 whispers lingering like wisps of smoke in my
mind and so, NO posting ink.  They were good and i hope it all comes back to me -- preferably
one at a time          ; )  LOL

"Yesterday, i spoke aloud about 6 spills in a row while i was trying to wake and get outta bed
but by the time i got to my journal i only had 6 whispers lingering like wisps of smoke in my
mind and so, NO posting ink.  They were good and i hope it all comes back to me -- preferably
one at a time"

Well, damn ... that sounds like a decent poem in and all by itself!  

Wow -- never seen it this way & sure, i suppose it sort of could be one.

Perhaps i'll copy this and expand on it?

appreciate Your objectivity, Brother

aaaaaaaaaah i wish it didn't mirror
a Beautiful person
but hopefully the Feel passes quickly for You

appreciate Your sharing with me

tripping into relationships...
I can understand this social awkwardness dearest Tallen
there is so much beauty in you
I hope there is one that will realize it...

love Brenda 💕

thank You Beautiful Brenda
for kind comments

i have friends who see beauty in me
but not just one or committed one

i think often we who struggle with invisible
illness don't quite fit in  socially

Honored for the RL add

"Out of loneliness
selfishly I fell
into her eyes, a stranger
I never took the time
to know"

I wish I was talented enough to write like this.  

Wha?????

You, Brother, ARE
and are waaaaaaay more talented than me!

But thankful for the super kind comment

This is so damn gorgeous, and painful. I can feel the heavy cloak your words are wearing throughout.  But, holy shit, it’s so beautiful a garment.  Amazing spill 💜.

You're makin' me blush..........

thank You for the kind read and praise

so Honored for the RL add

O man,
You got that right!

& as an empath, i seem to have an ability to fall
faster and deeper and that is rarely a good thing.

appreciate the praise and comments, Brother

Chess players who have never been included with the "" cool "" gang will ever be  not included.

It takes a special person to understand a lot of shit and not every mf will understand ever other mf shit

appreciate Your point of view

Hey, Tallen, my brother!  
 
Maybe you don't know, but my mind configures your name with a final T. To me, you are T allen T (like TNT), because you have a way with words. The word I'm spelling is TAL(L)ENT!  When you open pieces like this forlorn thing, you crumble the mental landscape and awake from the aquifers of cognitive-emotional paradigms all fire, fury, lava, and ash that quiet and heal the universe.  
 
Well done:  the dialogue flame continues to burn.  I've not been very visible these last few weeks because of being away from homebase and its internet liberties.  My wife and I are chilling out in a soul-and-body-healing country escape.  
 
I'll be ready for your tri-collab ideas (as earlier mentioned) when I  get back.  
 
Sincerely  
 
cab

Gosh how i love Your in depth comments
and i am T Allen (my middle real name)

Very clever play on my name, as well.

We all need a break from the internet from time to time.  I was gonna do a brief walk yesterday but got chased back into the home by a rogue Javelina!!
Actually was taking out the trash and checking on my mailbox but had to wait for the Beastie to leave the area.

I appreciate Your stopping by to read and share Your thoughts with me --
thank You.

Stare & marvel at a bright star for me while on that country escape  : )

I am literally speechless because this poem is so fucking good.

Yours,

LostGirl

I too am speechless
because i don't see how it's very good
but i have to take Yours and everyone's word for it

thankful for super praise
and

Honored for the RL add

I CAN see how it's liken to a
poignant romance film........
a narrative from a lost spirit's need

You used to be my biggest fan
and so You might be a wee bit slanted
in saying i am talented?

Nevertheless,
i thank You for kindness and kind praise

Super appreciative of this read and share from You --
thank You

I have almost given up on Happiness
but would settle
and settle for anything that feels like
or resembles
serenity, kindness or genuine compassion.

Still,
what You say is valid and has weight and energy and so for that, i thank You, anew