State of being

"I fear tomorrow I'll be crying"
so today I'll be flying
 towards finding that freedom within
which I plan to keep till the end of days when mind body and soul part ways.
Really I see no end though
only transformation,
 a transition so spectacular
and spoke about for centuries,
everyone searching for the secrets assuming they should be spread,
shared with the species but no one could/should ever claim to understand this existence,
 not even one's own experience is enough to explain this enigma we're all involved in ever since who knows when
 but we're still where we've always been,
baffled by this bizarre state of being,
still fleeing the feelings and
 floating through fantasies so far out
 and never spoke about due to the doubt dictating every decision,
never sharing the vision,
just slowly slipping away
into the next day, week, month, year
 till one reaches the "end" only to be ejected into another era in eternity.