I'm not okay anymore..

Pushed n' pushed
For one too many years
The pain ache self destruction is over
Pointless is what comes to mind on the aspect of living a life with one to love me
Used like I did to the ones I loved the most
Karma has found me
I deserve it all truly I do
Do sympathize towards my situation
I deserve to burn in the deepest darkest depths of hell
I know I'm prepared for all the fucked up deeds of gone through with,
Satan's uh fuckin pussy
And I truly deserve worse I deserve to be tortured my entire existing life..
I feel this fuckin low and only should receive "Passions of Christ" lashings...I'm sorry Jesus and God.....if your there...