mistaken

I miss you now      
    more    
than ever before      
I continue to dream      
that you'll walk  
  thru my door      
Rescuing me        
from    
who I've become      
Saving my soul  
before it goes numb      

For,       
I barely remember        
how    
    I used to be      
Before I surrendered        
my right to be    
                free      
Now,
  Someone familiar        
who    
fits in my clothes      
has stolen my identity        
    &  
some how got old      
       
So,    
I am fighting!
       To hold on the past      
Even though    
   this experience        
belongs in the trash        
My only escape        
Is a hole    
in the ground      
Surrendering  
     my thoughts        
  before    
they cause  
me to drown...