Waves

Maybe I cant understand alot until I've sat alone alot.
 
Maybe I'm like a silent Knight on silent adventure.  
 
Maybe I'm damned to be silenced.  
 
I don't get it.  
 
I really don't.  
 
Be dammed if I cry.  
 
I don't know why.  
 
Even when I give its not enough.  
 
When I took it wasn't enough.  

When I gave it wasn't enough.
 
Even when I was away it was not enough.  
 
I question my whole being.  
 
While people rant on at me.  
 
My whole mind is learning.  
 
Comparing the compassion I lack with the inability to speak my true mind.  
 
My poetic heart a deep crime.  
 
I don't get it lord.  
 
I really don't.  
 
I love you. I love you.  
 
A word I say oh so true..  
 
Did I forget? I could never forget.
 
Not unless you asked me too.  
 
So lord I don't get it.  
 
I really don't.  
 
I question my reality.  
 
I question my growth.  
 
My love seeping..  
Yet My heart palpitating.
 
Happy.
 
Yet so scared of what I'm unaware.  
 
Lord maybe I am vulnerable but in a honest way.  
 
Maybe my crumbles will rise like hot Ash as dissappear one day.  
 
Maybe I will see more than I now know.  
 
Maybe I dreamed things I couldn't even ever tell any of you.  
 
Fragile like a box you label.
 
Fragile like a tape you staple.  
 
Fragile is nothing but a word.  
 
And I'm sick of words.