Confused

Confused

Hash words spoken,
many promise broken.
I try to remain strong,
But we're not getting on.
It's the same ol' song, and I'm lost,
Risking it all, but at what cause?
Feeling nothing but pain,
Wondering when things will change.
I'm stuck in the game with no outlet,
I love to write, but it just adds on to the stress.
So lonely and depressed.
Badly torn inside,
Knowing its extremely hard for a good guy.
Second guessing everything,
Hanging on by a string.
They say when it rains it pour,
But what is the outcome when a fragile heart can't take it anymore?
What do I do?
Who do I run too?
This is more than just good advice,
It's my life, and another bad roll of the dice.
Or is it not how it appears?
Am I living in fear? scared...
To be alone,
But at the same time, not wanting to go home.
Dangling along the edge, at the end of my rope,
and I'm about to just let go.