FROM OUT OF THE ASHES

Sitting here as I stare up at the ceiling and look around at these four walls that surrounds me my mind slowly drifts to a place and time within my life when I was young wild and dangerous, but all it costed me was time as I found myself locked up in a cell behind steel and stones doing a 5-10 with time to think if only I would of just stop look and listen and told someone of the abuse.                                                                                                                
                                                                                                                                     But yet I chose to handle it myself for as those thoughts slowly begin to reemerge from the depth of my mind gripping at my soul and digging into the darkness of the abyss of a journey of years I wasted just because I didn't want to listen to sound advice.                                                    
                                                                                                                                      
But yet now as I am here no longer that same man who didn't really care not about nothing not even myself for I've changed with the years in passing, as I have grown in ways that even I thought were impossible for they say time will either reshape you or remold you into who you are destine to become.                                                                                            
                                                                                                                                               Even if your past journey travel and walk was created from the ashes of a dysfunctional family life of mental mind abuse and physical abuse that left scars not only on my body that was kicked, punched thrown against a wall but the deepest scars were upon my mind at the hands of a man not even my real father as my mother stood there within the corner not making a sound.            
                                                                                                                                     For it is going through these things that changed me and gave me my inner true strength and courage to survive within this cycle known as life for ever day is a struggle just to survive, for this is my story of my turmoils with my afflictions of my hurt and pain from my unspoken words a voice once of a child who grown up to be a man to survive the odds of life's journeys travels and walks from out of the ashes of the darkness.