YOU TOOK MY INNOCENCE

 

I can’t talk to anybody I feel like
nobody truly understands
I don’t trust anyone so I pick up this notebook
 And pen you see smiling but if you only knew
The things I hold inside.
 creeping in my room
No one knew how could
my mother be such a fool while she was off to school
left me with a man I knew done things to me that I should’ve not know.
Touching and pleasing himself in his zone
I couldn’t wait until my mother came home
When he was do told me if I ever told a soul
He would take my life crying when he left the room
Screaming on the inside this isn’t right so confused
But it never stop over and over again no one knew a thang
I hate you to the cord of my being,
Nights I would hide so he couldn’t find me  
I grew up thinking it was my fault for every rape and assault
This dark memories still haunt me .
I never look at men the same thinking
all men will do the same thing you did.
My trust is all fucked up but I knew the only way
To get over it is to open up and speak out but how
When I was so young I kept silence for to dame long .
So tell me what the  fuck do I do ?? when voices  in my head  
Keep saying  you are wasting your time no one  care anyway
I cant shake  it anymore
I have believe that my whole dame  life .

©Purplebutterfly