Caught inbetween

I'm caught inbetween whirlpools    
Of dreams
There...
I'm juggling words,  
you could have said.  
Hesitation has worn you,  
Torn you away from me.
 
I take never-ending escalator steps  
Towards golden love saxophones.   
I long to play them in my fantasies    
But can't ever find them along my way  
You have stolen some,  
 but kept them anyways,  
As you keep spinning round and round  
On empty carosels a blind man runs,  
Somewhere in my superstitions.
 
I try to pronounce your name    
in the distance,  
In the middle of the crowd,    
But still didn't realize your glory  
Never heard your whole story.  
 
Thinking of the price I pay in life,
For physical manifestation    
Running away from me,  
Like lost children ran away too soon.  
 
I try not to commit my heart to    
Your drumbeat that's gone astray,  
Far too many lost beats  
To even make sense  
of anymore, anyway.
 
Your unsteady hand on my drum.  
 Not committing my heart to  
Your dark shadow that lurks,  
Can not forecast it correctly  
It hides,  
doesn't want to  
come see my light.  
 
I await for the tangled cobb webs  
Of dimension    
To Hold my empty sadness