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schizo
you are the soft earth after it rains
arousing my senses making me feel safe
rooted to the ground...limbs to the sky
I'm breaking but you hold me here--
in this memory when we were kids climbing trees
summertime innocence is sacred
before plates hit the wall
shattering against fits of madness
you never saw it coming
this schizo nightmare
little brenda I keep you hidden
amongst the library books
musty...smelling of freedom
go through the wardrobe and enter Narnia
Mr. Tumnus will be serving tea
take your little girl hopes there
Judy Bloom knows the way
books magical...escape routes
forever locked in my insanity
tumbling into delusions
endless pills to cement me to the wall
where I stay stuck...demons fade
so does my imagination
drool...trapped in this state of nothingness
I hear you from time to time...brenda
stirring in the diary of my childhood
forever dreaming of the future
perhaps there will be a happy ending still
freefall through paranoia's trap door
I won't let the demons get you
they've come close I won't let them have you
the part of me who remains pure
brenda...vulnerable always beautiful in her flowering youth
write yourself a new story
by all means feature schizophrenia
write a book...they're waiting...
Published 21st Jun 2019
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21st Jun 2019 5:52pm
That inner child will remain...let her out once in a while, for we need to feel that sense of freedom with a whole world of opportunities awaiting to be had
21st Jun 2019 5:55pm
thank you dearest Tim she emerges in her own timing today to bring me a sense of peace taking me to my happy summertime place of tree climbing and books...
I deeply appreciate your thoughts today...
love Brenda ❤
I deeply appreciate your thoughts today...
love Brenda ❤
21st Jun 2019 6:36pm
A lovely reflection of that eager innocence of youth not yet jaded by the cruelties of time. Lovely write, Brenda
21st Jun 2019 10:54pm
21st Jun 2019 7:04pm
Oh Brenda, I think we're due for another collab! haha. This piece makes me want to write with you again about a topic that touches us to the core. Great write!
Daniel
Daniel
21st Jun 2019 10:55pm
aw thank you graciously dearest Daniel I would love to write again with you...yes it needs to be written about...
love Brenda ❤
love Brenda ❤
Anonymous
21st Jun 2019 7:15pm
We have to nurture our inner child. Nobody else can do it. And they're so deceptively strong...they made it through childhood but they're so often holding it all together with string & flower petals...or the pages of books...our escape route. Give that little girl a hug for me. I love you...
...ever your Willow
...ever your Willow
21st Jun 2019 7:19pm
thank you beautiful one you know it's funny I was just reading your poem from today... what I mean I was thinking of you... I love your beautiful insight on the inner child give yours a hug for me lovely one...
I love you...
love Brenda ❤💕❤💕
I love you...
love Brenda ❤💕❤💕
21st Jun 2019 8:45pm
thank you graciously dearest Daniel (Dada) for the love on this write...
love Brenda 💕
love Brenda 💕
21st Jun 2019 8:57pm
I hear you now Brenda. *big hugs* The details bring the memories to life, imbued with your depth of tenderness. You are beautiful.
21st Jun 2019 10:57pm
aw thank you dearest Daniel Fire Elemental you are so very beautiful to me as well...
love Brenda 🌹
love Brenda 🌹
22nd Jun 2019 2:13am
i read this spill on a day where i have been hallucinating way too often
and i don't know why..........
i still believe my schizophrenia protects me from much of the world and people who i do not understand
You make this sound more pretty than i ever could describe
and from a gentle heart and kindness and innocence of the child within
**Hugs** Beautiful Sister
and i don't know why..........
i still believe my schizophrenia protects me from much of the world and people who i do not understand
You make this sound more pretty than i ever could describe
and from a gentle heart and kindness and innocence of the child within
**Hugs** Beautiful Sister
22nd Jun 2019 2:15am
thank you graciously dearest Tallen hugs on those hallucinations today I know how rough those kind of days are...
love Brenda 🌹
love Brenda 🌹
Anonymous
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22nd Jun 2019 4:12am
smiles at you beautiful poetess thank you for such a beautiful thought...
love Brenda 🌹
love Brenda 🌹
6th Jul 2019 11:52pm
we all have that inner child yet the world we live in would rather we kept that child hidden, I say no sometimes that inner child is what keeps us sane keeps us from going crazy allows us to be free for even a split second and remember who we really are.
7th Jul 2019 00:46am
