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Putatively
Evidently I don’t know how to love
Blame it on electric trains
Spitfire planes
crushed little fingers
model glued together
abusing love putatively
is all I know. . .
Maybe why I put myself through
See-saw’d emotional pain
Whip me into confusion
Cut out my insolence
Break me into a million
little brittle fingernails
force down my throat
Finish me
finishing nails
driven
Fuck! My big feet still hurt
I gargle the red elixir
my fountain excavated
from blunt force trauma
Household pliers
my personal family
dental drama. . .
Abusing love putatively
is all I know. . .
Evidently
I really don’t know
how to love
Blame it on electric trains
Spitfire planes
crushed little fingers
model glued together
abusing love putatively
is all I know. . .
Maybe why I put myself through
See-saw’d emotional pain
Whip me into confusion
Cut out my insolence
Break me into a million
little brittle fingernails
force down my throat
Finish me
finishing nails
driven
Fuck! My big feet still hurt
I gargle the red elixir
my fountain excavated
from blunt force trauma
Household pliers
my personal family
dental drama. . .
Abusing love putatively
is all I know. . .
Evidently
I really don’t know
how to love
Written by
Tallen
(earth_empath)
Published 19th Jun 2019
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Re. Putatively
Anonymous
19th Jun 2019 1:54pm
I've heard that it starts with love of self. And a deep understanding of who we are, our strengths & weaknesses & our failures. Expectation can be a killer. If we can learn to let go of that & love for its own sake...not an easy thing to do. May you find your way...you're worth your own fight
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Re: Re. Putatively
19th Jun 2019 1:58pm
thank You, Beautiful Sister
i was reflecting this morning
at why my feet hurt so much
and remembered why
and then it tied into maybe
how i came to love physical pain so much
and then tied into love
But i suspect all You've shared is the truth
appreciate ; )
i was reflecting this morning
at why my feet hurt so much
and remembered why
and then it tied into maybe
how i came to love physical pain so much
and then tied into love
But i suspect all You've shared is the truth
appreciate ; )
Anonymous
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19th Jun 2019 1:58pm
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Re: Re. Putatively
19th Jun 2019 2:00pm
I believe Your thoughts here are valid
and maybe could be
Probably will take more meditation
and self reflection on my part to discover
which
appreciate Your well-wish
thank You
and maybe could be
Probably will take more meditation
and self reflection on my part to discover
which
appreciate Your well-wish
thank You
Re. Putatively
19th Jun 2019 5:46pm
Re: Re. Putatively
19th Jun 2019 7:13pm
I always spill similar themes
when my feet are killing me
Reminders of a time of a 1st grader's
abusive dad.......
thanx for reading and sharing and kind praise
when my feet are killing me
Reminders of a time of a 1st grader's
abusive dad.......
thanx for reading and sharing and kind praise
Re. Putatively
19th Jun 2019 7:48pm
There is no instruction manual, Tallen. We all learn in our own way and time, unfortunately, through the contrast of how not to.
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Re: Re. Putatively
19th Jun 2019 8:06pm
I believe i have successfully learned
How not to..........
I doubt even if there was an instruction manual
that i'd be able to understand it anyways
How not to..........
I doubt even if there was an instruction manual
that i'd be able to understand it anyways
Re: Re. Putatively
19th Jun 2019 8:07pm
You know, sometimes it's not about how to love, but how to be loved. Sometimes no matter how much you love, it's futile if the recipient isn't fully open to receiving it.
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Re: Re. Putatively
19th Jun 2019 8:13pm
Re. Putatively
20th Jun 2019 2:23am
I think everyone has his own way of loving. There's no perfect way or right way to love. We act base on how we feel it.
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Re: Re. Putatively
20th Jun 2019 2:28am
agree
and based on our experiences gained from each time we tried to love
thank You for the loving comments
and based on our experiences gained from each time we tried to love
thank You for the loving comments
Re: Re. Putatively
20th Jun 2019 5:04am
Re. Putatively
Anonymous
20th Jun 2019 7:19pm
i read this yesterday and had to step away to breathe a little. there is so much horror & vulnerability contort'd between the lines, it's overwhelming... like being up close with a beksinski & not being allow'd to look away... just being forc'd to stare at the surrealism, the nightmare with nowhere to turn & trying to find the beauty in it...
lawd, too much wine makes me chatty lol so i should stop myself there
but do know, this is painfully impactful
xo
lawd, too much wine makes me chatty lol so i should stop myself there
but do know, this is painfully impactful
xo
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Re: Re. Putatively
20th Jun 2019 11:47pm
Your insight and feel is acutely felt and You spiritually discern what i try to keep to myself
without being too cryptic, i tried to allay my pain to this spill......
Your share here, is rec'd with approval and lust - where i want to listen to Your heart all night.....
Damn........thank You Beautiful Sister, for this thoughtful read and share
without being too cryptic, i tried to allay my pain to this spill......
Your share here, is rec'd with approval and lust - where i want to listen to Your heart all night.....
Damn........thank You Beautiful Sister, for this thoughtful read and share
Re. Putatively
"Evidently
I really don’t know
how to love "
the whole it ripp'd right through, tearing away seams of my disguise
... fear pours red
jeez Tallen, tight hugs
I really don’t know
how to love "
the whole it ripp'd right through, tearing away seams of my disguise
... fear pours red
jeez Tallen, tight hugs
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Re: Re. Putatively
21st Jun 2019 2:32am
aaaaaaah Gorgeous -- it is just me wondering if
if
it's me for the reasons i am alone and not coupled.
& when IRL my feel hurt (from past physical abuses)
i always contemplate on my fucked up role models.
It's sad but i should be over this, should i not?
But what of my ability to Love?
What (the fuck) of that?
Love You and appreciate Your read and
wonder...........
if
it's me for the reasons i am alone and not coupled.
& when IRL my feel hurt (from past physical abuses)
i always contemplate on my fucked up role models.
It's sad but i should be over this, should i not?
But what of my ability to Love?
What (the fuck) of that?
Love You and appreciate Your read and
wonder...........
Re: Re. Putatively
not necessarily over it but however keen enough to
make you solid and vulnerable when needed by love,
not necessarily over it, but, however fluidity and
panoramic enough to respect, thusly, know how
precious life is because trust me... there are a lot of
you and mes out here in this world who arent with
us in this very moment.. who at this very second has
left behind a treasure in someone rather known or
not
but who am i to talk? or give advice,
what i do know is that we all provide love in our own
ways - its all about acceptance going in and out
yet, i ask myself the same, smh
Tallen, Tallen, Tallen ..for i do ramble
make you solid and vulnerable when needed by love,
not necessarily over it, but, however fluidity and
panoramic enough to respect, thusly, know how
precious life is because trust me... there are a lot of
you and mes out here in this world who arent with
us in this very moment.. who at this very second has
left behind a treasure in someone rather known or
not
but who am i to talk? or give advice,
what i do know is that we all provide love in our own
ways - its all about acceptance going in and out
yet, i ask myself the same, smh
Tallen, Tallen, Tallen ..for i do ramble
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Re: Re. Putatively
i know and understand
every line Your speak
You love.....
it's why i exists and still persists...
I've been born an emotional Healer
and i do what i do
but fuck me, i have a difficult time
healing myself.
You, are far more Beautiful and wise
than me
but together WE
are
and as in kindness, we keep on trying
to heal and love and teach
it is worth it
will be worth it all
every line Your speak
You love.....
it's why i exists and still persists...
I've been born an emotional Healer
and i do what i do
but fuck me, i have a difficult time
healing myself.
You, are far more Beautiful and wise
than me
but together WE
are
and as in kindness, we keep on trying
to heal and love and teach
it is worth it
will be worth it all