Putatively

I've heard that it starts with love of self. And a deep understanding of who we are, our strengths & weaknesses & our failures. Expectation can be a killer. If we can learn to let go of that & love for its own sake...not an easy thing to do. May you find your way...you're worth your own fight

thank You, Beautiful Sister
i was reflecting this morning
at why my feet hurt so much
and remembered why
and then it tied into maybe
how i came to love physical pain so much
and then tied into love

But i suspect all You've shared is the truth
appreciate   ; )

I believe Your thoughts here are valid
and maybe could be
Probably will take more meditation
and self reflection on my part to discover
which

appreciate Your well-wish
thank You

Breathe before thinking too much ... Good write ... Bless and much love ... .

I always spill similar themes
when my feet are killing me

Reminders of a time of a 1st grader's
abusive dad.......

thanx for reading and sharing and kind praise

There is no instruction manual, Tallen.  We all learn in our own way and time, unfortunately, through the contrast of how not to.  

I believe i have successfully learned
How not to..........

I doubt even if there was an instruction manual
that i'd be able to understand it anyways

You know, sometimes it's not about how to love, but how to be loved. Sometimes no matter how much you love, it's futile if the recipient isn't fully open to receiving it.

Yup  -- 100% agree

I think everyone has his own way of loving. There's no perfect way or right way to love. We act base on how we feel it.

agree
and based on our experiences gained from each time we tried to love

thank You for the loving comments

You're welcome brother.

i read this yesterday and had to step away to breathe a little. there is so much horror & vulnerability contort'd between the lines, it's overwhelming... like being up close with a beksinski & not being allow'd to look away... just being forc'd to stare at the surrealism, the nightmare with nowhere to turn & trying to find the beauty in it...
lawd, too much wine makes me chatty lol so i should stop myself there
but do know, this is painfully impactful
xo

Your insight and feel is acutely felt and You spiritually discern what i try to keep to myself

without being too cryptic, i tried to allay my pain to this spill......

Your share here, is rec'd with approval and lust - where i want to listen to Your heart all night.....

Damn........thank You Beautiful Sister, for this thoughtful read and share

"Evidently  
I really don’t know  


how to love "  
the whole it ripp'd right through, tearing away seams of my disguise
... fear pours red


jeez Tallen, tight hugs

aaaaaaah Gorgeous -- it is just me wondering if
if
it's me for the reasons i am alone and not coupled.

& when IRL my feel hurt (from past physical abuses)
i always contemplate on my fucked up role models.

It's sad but i should be over this, should i not?
But what of my ability to Love?
What (the fuck)  of that?

Love You and appreciate Your read and
wonder...........

not necessarily over it but however keen enough to
make you solid and vulnerable when needed by love,

not necessarily over it, but, however fluidity and  
panoramic enough to respect, thusly, know how  
precious life is because trust me... there are a lot of  
you and mes out here in this world who arent with  
us in this very moment.. who at this very second has
left behind a treasure in someone rather known or  
not

but  who am i to talk? or give advice,

what i do know is that we all provide love in our own  
ways - its all about acceptance going in and out

yet, i ask myself  the same, smh

Tallen, Tallen, Tallen ..for i do ramble

i know and understand
every line Your speak
You love.....

it's why i exists and still persists...
I've been born an emotional Healer
and i do what i do
but fuck me, i have a difficult time
healing myself.

You, are far more Beautiful and wise
than me
but together WE
are  
and as in kindness, we keep on trying
to heal and love and teach
it is worth it
will be worth it all