Goddamn your beautiful blue eyes

Goddamn the internet for letting me look you up.
a typewriter wouldn't let me do that.

though i'd still scramble, ravage for a phone book,
find your name and read.

the vowels and consonants crush me as they drop from my cognition & fixate.

baptizing me in your river of bound naked hostage victims held at gun point,
gagged, black mascara running, fuck me and kill me gaze.