Struggles with Forbidden Love

I knew from the very start
That you would probably break my heart
How could I fool myself into thinking
That it would just be me your seeing

I always knew that I fell for the wrong guys
It never stopped me from doing what I feel inside
I only want to be loved for being me
I don’t want to fake it till I make it

I just couldn’t help falling for you
One look into your eyes and I fell
Fell deep into your lies of a future
Lies of love lasting forever

Who am I to fell for a married man?
Who am I not to be happy with what I have?
Who am I to be so selfish?
Who am I to fall for you?

Can’t help falling for you
Haven’t slept right since I met you
All I want is to be right next to you
Zillions of thought swirling in my mind

Secret word spoken just to you
Love lost but not forgotten
Kindness and light when my life was so dark
Maybe someday one day

But today is not that day

-Demons in my head