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Dark Indifference
Shining eyes and dancing, flying steps
with a smile that makes one feel blessed
Their touch divine miracle, every day eternity
Joy followed in their wake, life delighted entirely
The change was so subtle, no precise start
Once brilliance and light, now shadow and night
Vacancy and darkness where upon a time
flawless euphoria, absolute joy all mine
I observe as I devolve helpless, incapable
halting the dark indifference impossible
Transformation would require knowledge
uncomprehending of what possessed me
Perhaps I was overrun, dominated
A vessel for malignant wraith which hated
Incited undiluted apathy, so very tragic
To illuminated, immortal soul, creating utter havoc
Recompense for who died in misery, forsaken
Is this my ultimate destiny, my lifelong plight
to be erased by impassivity, expunged from the light?
So far excised from emotion that even logic has no part
in the equation of salvation to bring light to my heart?
Indifference is the impeccable opposite of all emotion
blocking a soul from ecstasy here and Above
If this is my fate, I beg for inhuman compassion
Separate me eternally from mortal life, if I merit love.
with a smile that makes one feel blessed
Their touch divine miracle, every day eternity
Joy followed in their wake, life delighted entirely
The change was so subtle, no precise start
Once brilliance and light, now shadow and night
Vacancy and darkness where upon a time
flawless euphoria, absolute joy all mine
I observe as I devolve helpless, incapable
halting the dark indifference impossible
Transformation would require knowledge
uncomprehending of what possessed me
Perhaps I was overrun, dominated
A vessel for malignant wraith which hated
Incited undiluted apathy, so very tragic
To illuminated, immortal soul, creating utter havoc
Recompense for who died in misery, forsaken
Is this my ultimate destiny, my lifelong plight
to be erased by impassivity, expunged from the light?
So far excised from emotion that even logic has no part
in the equation of salvation to bring light to my heart?
Indifference is the impeccable opposite of all emotion
blocking a soul from ecstasy here and Above
If this is my fate, I beg for inhuman compassion
Separate me eternally from mortal life, if I merit love.
Published 9th May 2019
| Edited 7th Aug 2019
Author's Note
COMPETITION PIECE: In Kabbalistic thought, a dybbuk (restless malevolent spirit) can overtake a person and transform them into what the spirit had been like when alive. In this, the dybbuk has overtaken myself, rendering me apathetic and indifferent to the world to such a degree that I would rather be dead that stay as I am.
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Anonymous
9th May 2019 10:13pm
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9th May 2019 11:21pm
Sky,
Thank you for your kind words! There is very little mentioned how to prevent actual possession, and far more how to exorcise. The Talmud says that being scrupulous in the performance of mitzvot - religious precepts- saves a soul from such possessions. However, I wonder if this applies to people who are only occasionally depressed and do not have a genetic or chronic component.
Thank you for your kind words! There is very little mentioned how to prevent actual possession, and far more how to exorcise. The Talmud says that being scrupulous in the performance of mitzvot - religious precepts- saves a soul from such possessions. However, I wonder if this applies to people who are only occasionally depressed and do not have a genetic or chronic component.
12th May 2019 4:36am
Hi, I enjoyed this one. I can relate to this feeling of being over taken or possessed. Certainly feels that way for a lot when the wave of depression comes. It's transforming.
17th May 2019 00:11am
