Addiction Is

You pick up that bottle for the first time thinking,
“I’ll never let myself become addicted.”
You inhale the smoke from a plant because,
“No one has died from it.”
But you did these things not for the fun of it but
to mask the demons dancing around inside your mind.
Life happens.
Tragedy strikes.
Now all you feel is numb inside.
You pick up that bottle and smoke till your lungs turn black
to try to kill the pain.
One day you wake up and your vices aren’t working anymore,
so you seek out the next best thing.
Now you’re in big trouble as your heart races and your mind feels free.
How did you fall this far?
When did this become a daily thing?
You realize you never let yourself become addicted-
You were already addicted before you took your first drink.
You were addicted to hiding the pain.
You were addicted to control.
Feelings can run wild and that scares you,
so every time you try to break free you find yourself back with the pipe in hand, the bottle to your lips, or that person in your bed.
It doesn’t matter what it is, addiction IS a disease and it will take away your friends, your family, your self control, and your sanity.