Pain

You put away the sharp cutlery  
Brushed away the shards of glass  
You wouldn’t let my prick my finger  
And feel a little pain  
 
You folded away the page corners  
Took away the jagged hate  
I never learnt to avoid the dangers  
That brought me to want such easy pain  
 
Bloodied knee while out playing  
Don’t be stupid that never happened  
You kept me away from harm’s tempting ways    
Now it’s so delicious, delicious pain  
 
I’ve got it’s scent I’m a pain addict    
I crave it’s acrid taste to fill the empty space    
I want to feel it and get carried away  
Just let me have this simple pleasure!  
 
I don’t need the sick connection  
That you think I’m after or begging for    
Pain such a freedom, a liberation
I just need the break with the numbness it creates     
Don’t put it down because then I’d never understand your love.