sweet release

I hurt inside the pain conflicts me.
I'm surrounded by the nothingness of my soul.
It speaks not words but growles,
wanting to release some of the pain,
the anger.
I just need to cry or die,
but I have to much pride.
My heart is shriveled and worn up inside.
I need to bleed out and release some of the tension.
My skin crawles with anguish and answers.
Should I leave today?
Drain my soul from my body and be free and just walk away,
or live in this eternal hell they call life.
one slip of the knife.
Thats all it takes to make this pain go away.
The demons of my past are comeing back up to haunt me.
This is not someone I want to be.
I dont want to hurt.
I dont want to cry,
if I do my heart dies a little more inside.
I cant sleep because my heart is screaming.
Dear god,release me from this anguish,
distuingsh the fire inside me.
Please just let me go free.
My time has been served.
Now its time for me to let this nothingness go,
because it swallows me whole.
Its time to let the walls crumble down.
So I can be myself agian,
not this clown.
That taughnts me with every word i blow out.
Oh look there burning now,
ill let em go all the way down to the ground.