Don't You Remember?

I rest my weary head against the wall

It is too firm

Not comforting at all

“How did I get here?” I think to myself

“You know how you got here,” a voice answers

A voice all too familiar

“Go away,” I spit

And I’m nearly certain that I mean it

“You are the reason why”

I stare at the wall

It’s all the same texture and color

The floor, the ceiling, the door

“Now, you know that to be untrue”

A calm whisper

“Why are you here? Why have you followed me?”

I speak but I refuse to look

I don’t need to see the face when I’ve already read this book

“I’ll always be with you,

Wherever you go”

“No, not here. It’s not possible”

I whisper faintly

“Don’t you remember?

Don’t you remember how I carried you

Inside of me for all of those months?

Don’t you remember how I carried you

Before you could walk?

Don’t you remember how I carried you

Even after you learned to walk?

Don’t you remember?”

I say no words, I will not meet her eyes

“I am your voice of reason

Why can you not reason?

I was your voice when you couldn’t speak”

“You only ever spoke over me”

My voice is barely above a whisper

“I only ever spoke the words

You would never allow to escape your lips

Because I knew

Can’t you see by now?

We’re one and the same

You and I

It was me who held you up

When you couldn’t stand on your own

It was me who saw

When you were willfully blind

It was me who echoed

When you could barely pierce an empty room

It was me

Don’t you remember?”

“Yes,” I choke on the word

“I am your sense of belonging

Why will you not belong to me?”

“I can’t belong to you anymore,”

I murmur forlornly

“Don’t you remember how you broke my heart?

How you caused it to bleed?”

I hear the dejection

“Only after you broke mine”

“Yes, but only one of us is bound to this room,

Don’t you remember?”