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Rest in love bubba
How do you beg for somebody’s soul back a fighter a father my brother
I’m tryna keep my composure but GOD can you hear me screaming for my brother back
I can’t explain the pain the feeling nothing I’m numb he’s gone he’s dead doctor gave him 30 days and y’all let my nigga die all alone BROTHER IM SORRY I couldn’t get to you in time I couldn’t fix this I had no control and that’s what’s fucking me up you were my person good bad and ugly you were mine too me CAN YOU HEAR ME BEGGING FOR THIS MANS SOUL BACK memories moments and a blanket aren’t enough for me to be okay
This hurts, breathing hurts, the thought of never hurts.
My first born will never get to meet my first love my husband will not get to try and figure me out through you cause you are all I know.
Begged for as a fetus yet pushed away when this new life resembled the man who pushed her away.
12 years old he’s the reason I am who I am you molded me to be the best me I never knew what low self esteem was cause you installed in me that I was beautiful I will stand 10 toes with woman or man and remain solid cause I was taught to never fold you introduced me to words and when you found out i was in love with them you introduced me to more and when you found out I wrote poetry you wanted to hear everyone I LOVE YOU........
God I understand I can’t have that mans soul back I understand it was time I understand he checked out before the end of the line but God understand I’m not okay let the grief be quick let me be able to open my mouth and say his name and not want to blame the only person you would call in the rain .... I have no choice but to let your soul move in peace cause only you know how strong this fire is inside me
I’m tryna keep my composure but GOD can you hear me screaming for my brother back
I can’t explain the pain the feeling nothing I’m numb he’s gone he’s dead doctor gave him 30 days and y’all let my nigga die all alone BROTHER IM SORRY I couldn’t get to you in time I couldn’t fix this I had no control and that’s what’s fucking me up you were my person good bad and ugly you were mine too me CAN YOU HEAR ME BEGGING FOR THIS MANS SOUL BACK memories moments and a blanket aren’t enough for me to be okay
This hurts, breathing hurts, the thought of never hurts.
My first born will never get to meet my first love my husband will not get to try and figure me out through you cause you are all I know.
Begged for as a fetus yet pushed away when this new life resembled the man who pushed her away.
12 years old he’s the reason I am who I am you molded me to be the best me I never knew what low self esteem was cause you installed in me that I was beautiful I will stand 10 toes with woman or man and remain solid cause I was taught to never fold you introduced me to words and when you found out i was in love with them you introduced me to more and when you found out I wrote poetry you wanted to hear everyone I LOVE YOU........
God I understand I can’t have that mans soul back I understand it was time I understand he checked out before the end of the line but God understand I’m not okay let the grief be quick let me be able to open my mouth and say his name and not want to blame the only person you would call in the rain .... I have no choice but to let your soul move in peace cause only you know how strong this fire is inside me
Published 11th Mar 2019
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17th Aug 2019 12:50pm
Oh sweet heart such a powerful write you are not alone hasnt been long i lost my brother now the overflow of emtion returns.
28th Aug 2019 5:30pm
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