This Silent Response

Over a month now,
and that message lingers
several times I review it
and I stop my fingers

I feel that pull
whatever it is she must say
but I'm fearful of the destruction
it could bring my way

Why must it nag at me
if I don't react?
What is the purpose
when we'll never go back?

But I always respond
and it fights with my nature
that the slightest interaction
would lead to grave danger

You broke me once,
and I can't do that again
your lies had me branded
as you collected my friends

An unwelcome disruption
to the peace I've been sowing
it wouldn't surprise me
if those eyes are still glowing

You ensured I was silenced
seems suspect you'd forget
that to sever from betrayal
put me deeply in debt

You got off easy
the marriage wasn't the problem
luck saved me from being a lifer
when not wearing a condom

All you've done is remind me
that you're decision was my saving
a decade is long gone
so what would need explaining

I believe in amends
but really what needs discussing
for you've earned that lone honour
my mistake was in trusting