What am i doing?

Im scared
i dont know what im getting myself into
ive always been scared of something like this
it chases me like the neghbours rabid dog that makes you take the long way home.
what do i do?
im not saying your like the others,
but it feels like history is about to repeat itself.
are you the one to break my curse?
the one to smash the concrete shoes i  wear?
or maybe your the one to strip me, laying naked in the rain?
im walking in a viscous sea of fog, hoping i dont fall off another cliff.