I just have a feeling that change is on its way someone who will stay and help me finish healing It would be nice to understand what it is to have the faith to forgive another's mistakes A relationship that could withstand separation, confusion, distress without becoming a broken mess All I've ever seen of love is a never-ending burden but if I could only be certain that I had someone worth fighting for who I would never want to let go of then I would have a reason to believe that love is something I can receive
In this moment I am healed I know it's all for the best There's no need to be distressed Everything has been revealed and despite our best intentions there was no simple solution no way to avoid confusion or method of prevention After all that time spent wondering if you could be mine I'm finally able to be content with being surrounded by love, friendship, sisterhood, and knowledge all the things I never get tired of I don't miss telling you goodnight There's no way for me to be sad when my future is so bright I know that...
I can't wait for the day when I can't remember how it feels to be head over heels and willing to go out of my way to bring you any amount of joy I was way in over my head all of my own thoughts left unsaid until there was nothing left to enjoy I spent so much effort and time trying to help you through life's troubles that I was unable to climb out of the deep hole I'd fallen into So no matter what happens now You cannot rely on me to get through because I'm not willing to lose myself just to save you
Who can tell what's meant to be If it will be worth the strife to choose that particular life When you consider you and me it quickly becomes clear that it takes more than fate and a willingness to wait for the right time to be near Even doing all the right things does not create a magic so strong that everything can't go wrong So in the end I will argue that fate needs a little assistance which can't be achieved through distance
I thought that what I wanted was for you to feel my pain But I've learned there's nothing to gain from sharing the feeling of being haunted So even when I want to throw everything right back at you I remind myself that I got through and now I'm ready to let go Just one last reminder Next time you're in this situation try to be a little bit kinder Because you can never really know how much you might mean to the one who's watching you go
What would I have done if I had seen into the future? If I could have predicted the way things ended Destruction so permanent that nothing could be mended If telling you goodbye could have prevented further torment at your hands. I don't have to know the answer to know where I stand All good things must come to an end Even when I never thought I'd see the day When you wouldn't be my friend
I can't stop searching for the person you used to be The one who stopped the hurting and saw the real me You made me a better person I hope you can say the same You're not the one I blame for the twisted version of you that I see now I can't help but look at your face and see my own disgrace I was the one who didn't know how to find my new place in a world without you
I have you to praise for who I am now I'll never understand how you could even brighten the days when I almost gave up trying As I attempted to tackle the unknown, you never let me be alone I never spent time crying unless it was beyond your control to stop me from being afraid There was no way for you to console when the only thing wrong was fear that I was losing the only one who could make me strong
I've been through this before so even when you're careless I'm still able to suppress the urge to ignore every time you reach out Consider this a warning I've long ago stopped mourning our detour from the route that would have connected us We both had something to lose but it was you who had to choose With nothing left to discuss Your friendship I will refuse Because you chose wrong
Every day I struggle to understand what it must be like for you --the world from your point of view Every obligation and every demand When I put myself in your shoes, I see why you had to end the path that went from a friend to someone more painful to lose I know that you were scared You couldn't predict the future There was no way to be prepared It doesn't matter anymore But just so you know You didn't have to close the door
When I think about future days, you are always there proving to me that you care It may not be in the same way Not the same feeling we once had but it gives me some hope Some way to cope when everything else is going bad Then suddenly I realize that this is all just a joke Our friendship is full of lies I don't want to be a consolation prize I want to really matter to someone It's time to cut all ties You aren't the person I need One more step and I'll be freed Hope is supposed to be proof of love but all I feel is hate...