Hey.

  
This is me. Can you see? I'm re-imagining who i am, what I want to be. I keep tumbling to the floor, have to pick myself back up. Or I'm trying to. I don't know what.              
                               
I wouldn't want to bother you. I'd run away and hide instead. I'm afraid of everyone. You've been kind to me. You're nice. You probably won't see me for two weeks.                               
                 
Nothing works. And everything hurts. I'm better now than I was before.              
           
   I'm suicidal.              
                               
Everything has gotten harder and all of me keeps falling apart.                
                               
I do have a huge crush on you, but I'm not stupid. It's like I'm a child.    
   
Right now I claim to be kind-of somehow sort-of gender-transitioning? I have no idea      
how.            
           
I've always been embarrassed.     
   
   
there was more, a bit... but I edited it away at some point since i posted it.   
   
It probably said, I want to know you forever and be as much around you as possible,    
   
or something like that.