Eulogy

Your arms around me,
Firm and gentle
Holding me against you
The hard pane of your chest
Your musky smell
Your gentle long supple fingers
Probing my wetness

Opening my legs a little wider
For your lovely caresses
Playing me with a hidden rhythm
That only you can hear
Lovely sounds of love
Played by your fingers
Followed with your tongue

Pleasure, writhing, throatily moaning
I called out your name
A name so familiar, called so many times before
I opened my lustful eyes
To nothing, a waning mirage
Dispelled like morning mists
By gay bright dawn sunlight

Turning towards the wall
Hot depreciating tears began to fall
Residues of pleasure began to fade
The memories began to creep
From the corner of my mind
And I see you again standing tall
Like a landed angel, just like always

Oh Beloved, my beauteous beloved
Would that you never strayed
Or confessed your love to another
While vowing to love me forever
Why did you made love to her, hold her?
During the eve of our wedding day
Told her your regrets?

Told her you were sorry
That you pledged your heart to me?
With that you shattered my heart
Strew it over the landscape of my mind
The remnants of my heart, trodden
By your lies that mocked
From your lips that kissed another

Lights against the knife’s blade
Striking force, born of hatred
Numbness, despair, desperation
Nothingness, darkness, anger
Urged my trembling hand
To deal the fatal blow
So you mocked my love no more

Within this barred room
I think of you, my almost- groom
The pleasure that you rendered
When you still loved me
I still remember your name, tears still flow
Eulogy to a past passion,
Dead as brown autumn leaves