NURSE DEEBO: Targeted Individual Sexual Harassment and Medical Abuse Script

in 1974, the Eugenics Board of North Carolina was quietly disbanded after it came to light that many of the seven thousand people whom were illegally and immorally sterilized had no prior knowledge as to what was about to be done to them. Their consent was not asked for, neither was it given. The county of Mecklenburg (Charlotte) sterilized three times the number of residents, more than any other county in the entire state.              
              
My story with the Mecklenburg County Health Department started in two thousand and nine. At the request of my primary care physician, that I get the STD test portion of my yearly physical done at the city's health clinic.              
For some time before that moment I've had some weird dating experiences with a few of the women in the city. I am not a frequent dater of any kind and I usually have long lapses in which I rather like being alone. However I began to notice that once I started dating again I would meet a woman who is very attractive and we would have great conversations and the chemistry between us would be undeniably strong. The first times when I was about to have sex I always do three things before engaging in sexual activities. Well four things. First I would send via email or text regarding text my latest std test results (not all the time but about sixty percent of the times). Full disclosure is important for peace of mind, protection, respect, love and honor, also to avoid any drama like the blame game if something went wrong you would know from whom and would be able to make the other person aware to seek medical attention. I incorporate the other things into the foreplay part working up and leading to intercourse. I start inspecting by kissing the inner thighs while looking for any abnormalities such as genital warts and scars that would indicate herpes/syphilis or yellow discharge that would indicate other kinds of infections. Then I finesse my way to smelling for any strange scent barely rubbing the tip of my nose onto her labia while inhaling deeply adding a compliment if she smells tasty 😋. Parting her labia to further inspect her vagina. Once everything is to my liking then I'd give her a great big loud wet and juicy 😘 and we would then continue like the Xscape song goes to "do what lovers do."            
             
I was not always this keen but experience has taught me this lesson in caution. Like most men who dive in head or the other  head first, raw dogging it or hoodie first with carefully priming the slay can lead to being 🔥 which is not fun and can lead to all kinds of issues we would all like to avoid. I avoid bloody sex for the most part unless she's my steady/girlfriend/regular exclusive cutty buddy. Never done anal cause, well that I already explained in another story. Wearing a condom should become second nature, even though sometimes when the chemistry say's fuck it, understand the risk beforehand. And even when you understand the risk you still give the other person your power of protection to do as they please, and they can betray that trust and shit can turn from sweet to sour real quick. But such is life huh, life is about choices, right or wrong, options, you can get with this (condoms, birth control, STD printed or site login results in hand) or you can get with that, taking Russian roulette chances. Sometimes you get lucky and unscathed but other times you walk away with some shit you can get rid of and other times some shit you'll have to live with for the rest of your natural life or some other shit that may end your life span shorter than mother nature normally would.            
             
Regardless of whatever circumstances we end up in, we should learn to behave in an adult and civil manner for the most part. Many people are unaware of their sexual health status and those that are aware have a responsibility to themselves and others to put safety and care ahead of pleasurable desires without thinking of the consequences involved. Knowing the risk beforehand makes all the difference in the world, especially for the person who is about to be involved in whatever the situation/relations is and what's to be accepted and agreed on.      
     
I've had my suspicions for quite a while that the Nazi agents and their perps were acting foul and trying to ruin my great standing with members of the opposite sex. I started getting STD testing every six months even when I was not sexually involved. STD Viruses can be encapsulated gel capsule form (living inside vaginal and seminal fluids). Others can live in undergarments, sheets, mattresses (crabs). Certain kinds of foods can throw a woman's PH balance off and cause her to have I'll effects vaginally. Men can carry the HPV virus and not know because there is no test for men which screen for the virus.              
One time I went to get tested and after I had urine and blood work done and was on my way out the door, I was suddenly called into a room by a Caucasian nurse. What is this all about? "Oh it's nothing just department policy stuff." Okay, what is it then. "Can you excuse me for one minute please?" Sure! She stood about five feet six inches tall, curly hair, wore no makeup, stocky built with a round face, thin lips, blue eyes, and lips of a chain smoker. She exited the room and returned in less than a minute with an armed male Caucasian security guard. What the heck is this all about, I demand an answer. "I just need to look up your anus, it's no big deal really, we do it all the time."              
With all the killings of unarmed black males in the news, I kept thinking this could be one of those moments. Are you sure this is company policy? "Yes I can assure you Mr. Neil it is." Why is he in here? "Company policy states I have to be accompanied by security as a witness to avoid any sexual harassment accusations." I have been coming here for years and I have never been asked by anyone to look up my anus. " We do from time to time, you know like a random drug test thing they do with sport athletes."              
At this point I was feeling angry, scared, and bewildered at the fact that I was about to be made to feel undignified and violated. I reluctantly did as she asked. Pulling my pants down I felt hurt, when she spread my butt cheeks apart with prying eyes violating my privacy and persons I feel humiliated, belittled, like a slave who was just sold to a new master and the doctor was called to inspect me for approval before the sum was paid and papers were signed and carted or dragged away. The security guard, the overseers standing there witnessing my diminishing pride, his duty, to keep me in check, to make sure I do not get out of hand. I could feel her eyes searing through me, the lump of mucus sitting in my throat ready to express my disgust at the both of them. "You can pull up your pants now Mr. Neil."            
           
A year later I returned to another clinic in the same city to get tested again. While waiting in one of the rooms for the nurse to attend to me I thought about leaving and getting the test done at my primary care physician's office because that last experience left a bad impression on me. To my surprise in came the same nurse that totally dehumanized me. This time she was wearing light but colorful eye shadow, blush and light pink lipstick. All that makeup could not hide the ugliness buried deep within this menace to black men. I didn't want to cause a scene and acted cordial. I had filed a complaint a few months before and asked to be flagged. I requested that the next time I returned to any of the clinics that she would not be assigned to me, and if she is the only nurse there, I would come back another time or get tested at another location. A few weeks after my initial complaint my testicles stopped producing sperm and my gums began rapidly deteriorating.  
         
It took allot of courage to do this but for a whole year this experience changed me and made me angry, especially seeing her again when I specifically requested not to be attended by her. Why is it when a black man shows concern for his sexual health and we'll being, it is seen as something suspicious. He must be gay, bisexual or involved in some risky devious sexual behavior to be in here getting tested. Never once thinking that maybe he grew up in a culture that promoted, appreciated and encouraged knowing your sexual health status and staying sexually healthy. It's always the worst 😷. I've express some concerns in the past where I felt the agenda was to make me seem like am angry person. And I also strongly felt my dating life always been greatly managed by the agents and perps to some degree. I bought those concerns to the doctor at the clinic. She was concerned and pleased that I pay attention to such odd trends in my dating life and logged my complaints.        
I went to the clinic manager to voice my dismay and complete disbelief of the lack of communication for my request. I explained with nurse Bishop present that throughout the medical history in America, people of color have been unfairly treated which is one of the main reason black people do not trust going to state and city run health care facilities. I suggested that nurse Bishop needed to be educated on such matters. I was informed by the clinic manager that it was not company policy and after by another individual that what transpired was also a very serious HIPPA privacy violation to do what she did. This is where I got really angry. I hate when black people in management positions in facilities that provide services in predominantly black communities attempt to make light of situations that should make them very concerned yet they try to make excuses and blow off the infraction in a whimsical manner. To make it says even though you're the manager you are just a puppet. There's a whole lot of puppetry out chew. Mind you there was a curtain which she did not even bother to close, leaving the security guard to see my diminished masculinity during that encounter. I mean what the fuck was the point of this happening.      
         
When you are working in a community that service a group of people who have always been victimized, dehumanized, and whose bodies have been brutalized, mutilated, experimented on and used purely for research and exploitive purposes to make higher profits in a multitude of industries you must realize, recognize and check your preconceived notions, attitudes and behavior patterns upon entering the work place when servicing such peoples. Suing the health department would only take away much needed financial resources that are desperately needed in our community. I firmly believe that education, a commitment to provide better service and the treatment of people with dignity, respecting their right to privacy, to feel secure when they are in the most vulnerable of positions will do more good for everyone involved.        
         
I know the goal of the perps is to take what little our people have to secure our health out of our communities by planting agitators and I for one is not going to be a party to such sneaking underhandedness.