Cigerattes

I understand now,
It halters converging thoughts    
As these Brain cells decay,    
Sometimes I too just like to fade away  
I get it, ever since daddy left  
I always seemed to miss him less  
But now we have a lotta debt  
That debt being this pain,    
I see it when I look into the portals of your eyes    
I resemble him alotta so when you look at me you cry, sometimes,  
I'll try to be a better man I promise    
Trying to chase these checks to settle all the homage  
   
I need a cigarette...