i Can't

I can't look in the mirror and say I care
cause I don't
I can't say I never thought about death
cause I have
there's nothing here for me I guess
I started with no one and have so many regrets
I can't say I'm present
cause I'm not
I can't say I haven't tried
cause I have
Cried for so long but it seems the tears have dried up in my eyes
Does it count as crying if every time I end up with my head against a wall?
Does crying count when it's your pain looming over your head?
Can't say I'm okay
cause I'm not
Can't say I'm innocent
Because It Is My Fault